the show goes on;

Independent;

Sometimes it’s a good thing to be independent; To not depend on everyone for everything. But other times I wish I could tell you how much I need you… How dependent I would love to be on you. But I could never do that. You need space, and I understand. I’m willing to give that to you, after all it’s the least I can do. I don’t want to come off as clingy, desperate, or pathetic. I’m different. I know, but I’m not sure you understand that. I have a completely different background and take on the world. I see things completely separate than you would. But my views and opinions have nothing to do with you. Yes I’m stubborn.. But that’s not why society appear different. It simply has to do with my ways and how I was brought up. My parents don’t love me as much as they should, and they know it’s true. I’m much too mature for a sixteen year old, and they are aware of this too. I’ve gone through too many hardships for someone of my age. Things get tough, but I know I can count on myself for taking things forward. Backwards was never a farmiliar direction for me. Life goes too fast and people get left behind. It’s hard to know who to trust. Ultimately, trust yourself. You’ll always be there.

Disrupted;

I never thought you would be that person to leave my life like this. You don’t understand how hopeless I feel. You were my best friend and you treat our friendship like it was nothing. You never cared about me. It was all about you. I don’t understand what I did to make you feel so badly about me. As often as I confide in you, I always thought the trust was a mutual thing. Apparently not. Grow up and talk to me other than text messages. If our friendship was ever real- You would have enough respect for me to at least talk to me over the phone. Pathetic. People change. 

My Prince;

I’m so overjoyed with butterflies right now. You’re perfect. You make me wish I was as wonderful as you make me feel. I’m your princess and I’m loving every second of it. 

As of Now;

I think its real. I realized this yesterday. I know now. It’s incredible. 

Cloud 9;

I love feeling happy. I haven’t been this happy in the longest time. So much is right. I’m smiling and I feel like I’m on cloud 9. Maybe this is a place I should be more often..? Soooo grateful for everything and everybody